Friday, August 7, 2009

What's In a Name

My dear son,


I love you so much. You are an absolute joy to me! You truly light up my world. Your charm is undeniable, your compassion a marvel, your energy inspiring. Your love for God amazing to behold.


I can hardly stand to put a label on you. It seems so negative. Difficult to say the words without changing the shape of you in my mind. Devastating.


Why it should be so; simply putting a new name to what has always been present, I do not know. It is like the thought of breathing life into a hidden monster. As untrue as that is in reality. Adding a weight of dread to a thing already difficult.


Yet, if that label helps me to understand you. Helps me get inside your head so I can show you how to cope. Then it is no bad thing.


My dear one, I never doubt for a moment that you are destined for greatness, in whatever form greatness takes shape for you. I love you. Know that I am praying every day for Wisdom. I regret every mistake, every day that I have made more difficult for you through my ignorance. Or stubbornness. I will always be there for you, in spite of my mistakes.


The verse your Papa and I picked out for you the day you were born happens to be from the very book of the Bible that bears your name--


"I command you---be strong and courageous! Do not be afraid or discouraged. For the Lord your God is with you wherever you go."

2 comments:

Momma Bug said...

Precious friend of mine - inspiring mother,

You are right! What is, has always been known to the Father of Lights.
I hatehatehate labels!
But... if it can in any way help in an effective course of action, it can be good.

I'll be praying for you, and loving you, and cheering you on!

Love,
me

Matthew said...

I have been given many labels in my life, and most of the time I let them get me down. I promise never to treat Joshua any different than normal. He is lots of fun and I hope he and I can be good friends. He doesn't have any "disorders" he simply requires more out of life than most people. He has a God given gift to know that there is more and it is whithin his grasp.